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Official estimates of UK Covid-19 infections will come to a halt on Friday – just as levels may be on the increase again.
The long-running coronavirus infection survey, dubbed the “envy of the world” for its success in measuring prevalence of the virus among the population, will publish its final regular update on March 24.
Any further monitoring of Covid-19 will be announced after a review to ensure it is “cost effective”, according to the UK Health Security Agency (UKHSA).
Statistical experts hailed the survey as the “jewel in the crown of UK science”, adding it is “vital” this kind of “trusted and reliable” resource is available in the future.
The survey collected tests from households regardless of whether participants knew they had Covid-19, or if they were reporting results to the NHS, meaning it provided a snapshot of the true spread of the virus, which was often underestimated by Government figures.
Sir David Spiegelhalter, emeritus professor of statistics at Cambridge University and chairman of the advisory board for the survey, told the PA news agency...
“There is a general consensus that the survey has been a world-leading demonstration of how health surveillance can best be done. A loyal cohort of participants have provided repeated swabs, blood tests and symptom data – and if we did not test people without symptoms, how else would we know how many were infected and yet symptom-free?
“It is expensive, and this has led to it being paused, but the participant group is not being disbanded and a survey should be able to ramp up when necessary.”
The survey has been led by the Office for National Statistics (ONS) and was rolled out across the UK during summer 2020, just after the first wave of the virus.
It has measured every wave since then, with its figures revealing the biggest wave came in spring 2022 when weekly infections hit 4.9 million, followed by winter 2021/22, which peaked at 4.3 million.
In recent months the survey has helped track the scale and progress of the Christmas 2022 wave, which peaked at nearly three million infections, as well as the latest rise in prevalence of the virus.
Thomas House, professor of mathematical statistics at Manchester University and one of the academic collaborators on the survey, said that while he accepted it had been costly to run and there was a need to save money, it was a shame to see the project end at this point and not run for slightly longer.
“The survey was designed to be scaled up and down, so a better decision might have been to just scale it down for a bit – especially as we don’t know where Covid will settle in terms of long-term prevalence, and we don’t know what next winter is going to look like.
📆 23 Mar 2023 📰 ‘Jewel in the crown’ Covid-19 infection survey bows out on Friday
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I know there is woman who are lesbian because they hate men, for whatever reason. But I don’t ever hear much gay people who are gay because they hate woman or anything like that? Is it a very rare case that it’s a thing? Or am I tripping. Because I know a lot of woman who do hate men or despise them and become lesbian because of that.
I wonder if that’s the case for gay men? I know this isn’t a common saying or hearing but it’s a real thing.

So some of you guys must follow hockey, but theres been this giant meme developing in the NHL. All teams have a Pride Night and its been a thing for idk at least a few years. Some teams, like the Florida Panthers, have been doing it for like 10 or something. But this year there has been a lot of resistance (truly shocking given current political climate surrounding gay/trans discourse). The main thing about Pride Nights are that the home team wears a Pride Jersey during warm ups. They do this type of support a lot, for instance for "Hockey Fights Cancer" the warm up jersey would be purple.
It started with Ivan Provorov, from the Philadelphia Flyers, deciding not to wear one, citing religious reasons. It was earlier this year and it was a bit of a surprise. I thought at the time it might would fizzle because surely more players wouldn't follow suit. It didn't lmao. IRRC both New York teams did not wear their pride jerseys for pride night, a organization decision. San Jose Sharks goalie last week decided not wear his because of his religion citing wanting to live like Christ lmao. The Blackhawks, another historic franchise, decided not to because they "didnt want to pressure their Russian players" presumably to take a stance in support of gays. Allegedly the Russian players were not even consulted about this.
The cream of the crop by far is Eric Staal, a veteran player. This man(and his brother) also don't wear their jersey citing being a Christian. Some reporter looks it up and notices he has worn one before and asks him and Eric Staal denies it https://twitter.com/rinkside/status/1639088139963715585
Its pretty sad honestly. Many people, within the league, have pointed out that you dont have to approve of gay/lgbtq people, you're just saying its a safe place for them to be, work and play. The NHL has this slogan "hockey is for everyone." Given this and the numerous hazing, sexual assault and other horrible accusations and convictions going about, I get the feeling that hockey isn't really for everyone lmao.
tldr- a fair number of players are not supporting pride night, including some entire teams lol. Hockey isn't for everyone
(I will point out that a number of players have spoken out saying that they do support gay people watching and playing hockey. Some even on the teams of these guys, which i find hilarious)

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Phish, Wednesday 03/24/1993 (30 years ago) Luther Burbank Center for the Arts, Santa Rosa, CA, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1993 WinteSpring Tour
Set 1 : Llama , Foam , Fee > Poor Heart , Maze , I Didn't Know ¹ , Sample in a Jar , All Things Reconsidered , Runaway Jim , Amazing Grace ² , Cavern
Set 2 : The Landlady > Split Open and Melt , Sparkle > Tweezer > Mound , Big Ball Jam > Fast Enough for You , You Enjoy Myself , The Horse ³ > Silent in the Morning , Hold Your Head Up > The Prison Joke ⁴ > Hold Your Head Up > Terrapin > Hold Your Head Up , Good Times Bad Times
Encore : Carolina ² , The Squirming Coil
1 Fish on trombone. 2 Without microphones. [3] Trey on acoustic guitar. [4] Was told by an audience member named "Sam" after Fish refused to tell it.
Jamchart Notes:
Split Open and Melt - Rhythmically oriented jam with awesome Fish and shredding Trey which gets increasingly experimental and dissonant.
Show Notes:
I Didn't Know featured Fish on trombone and The Horse featured Trey on acoustic guitar. Amazing Grace and Carolina were performed without microphones. You Enjoy Myself contained Amazing Grace and the theme from Speed Racer teases. The Lion Sleeps Tonight and Under Pressure were teased in the You Enjoy Myself vocal jam. The Prison Joke was told by an audience member named "Sam" after Fish refused to tell it. Fish teased Moby Dick before Good Times Bad Times. The soundcheck's Ready for Love also contained bits of No Quarter and Slave (The Rolling Stones).
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Phish, Tuesday 03/24/1992 (31 years ago) Flood Zone, Richmond, VA, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1992 Spring Tour
Set 1 : Stash , Poor Heart , Foam , Eliza > Rift , Golgi Apparatus , The Horse > Silent in the Morning , Llama , Colonel Forbin's Ascent > Fly Famous Mockingbird ¹ > The Landlady , David Bowie
Set 2 : The Curtain > Mike's Song > I Am Hydrogen > Weekapaug Groove ² , Guelah Papyrus , The Mango Song , Brother ³ , Uncle Pen , I Didn't Know ⁴ > The Oh Kee Pa Ceremony > Suzy Greenberg > Harry Hood , Cavern ³
Encore : Lawn Boy , Fire
1 Narration gave brief recap of Gamehendge saga. 2 Screams from band members. [3] Carl Gerhard on cornet. [4] Fish on Bag-Vac.
Show Notes:
The Mockingbird narration gave a brief recap of the Gamehendge saga and included Wilson teases. The Bowie intro included Take Five teases. Trey teased Moving in Stereo in Mike's Song. Weekapaug featured screaming band members and a Mainstreet tease. Brother and Cavern featured Carl Gerhard on cornet. Before I Didn't Know (which featured Fish on Bag-Vac), Trey introduced Fish as "Clifford O'Sullivan, a beacon of light in the world of flight."
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Phish, Friday 03/24/1989 (34 years ago) The Paradise, Boston, MA, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1989 Tour
Set 1 : Possum , Mike's Song > I Am Hydrogen > Weekapaug Groove , Golgi Apparatus > Divided Sky , AC/DC Bag , If I Only Had a Brain , Take the 'A' Train , David Bowie
Jamchart Notes:
Mike's Song - This fiery version marks the first instance of the 2nd jam, separated from the 1st jam by D, E, and F# chords at 5:22. While only 20 seconds in duration, over time, the 2nd jam would at times become significant. The 2nd jam concludes with a repeat of the D,E, and F# chords, followed by the closing chords.
Show Notes:
This setlist is incomplete and is out of order. The only recording in circulation is a mix of songs from the show, which features Hydrogen brutally cut out of the Mike's Groove. This setlist is in the order in which those songs appear on the mix. (The mix also includes several songs from the Paradise show on January 26, 1989.) Possum contained a Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer tease, which raises the question - were these songs really performed in March 1989? David Bowie closed the first set. Before Brain, someone introduced Fish - or is it Phish - as being "from Bogota, Columbia." It is therefore possible that Brain opened this show, which would be the only (known) time that Brain opened a show.
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Mike Gordon

Mike Gordon, 2019-03-24 The Sinclair, Cambridge, MA, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/mike-gordon-march-24-2019-the-sinclair-cambridge-ma-usa.html
Tour: Not Part of a Tour
Show Notes: The Grid included additional lyrics referencing "Josh," who was a bartender during Thursday's show and a subject of banter from Mike for the rest of the Sinclair run.

John Fishman

Pork Tornado, 2000-03-24 Snow Barn, Mt. Snow, VT, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/jon-fishman-march-24-2000-snow-barn-mt-snow-vt-usa.html
Tour: Fish - Pork Tornado Spring 2000
Show Notes:

Other

Keller Williams, 2012-03-24 Higher Ground, South Burlington, VT, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/guest-appearance-march-24-2012-higher-ground-south-burlington-vt-usa.html
Tour: Not Part of a Tour
Show Notes: Mike sat in for I'm Yours and Born to Be Wild.

i keep isolating myself and cutting off everyone tht i assume hates me but like i wont do tht if we become bffs and also theres this girl called nev NEV IF UR READING THIS PLZ... I MISS U SM. ugh anyway. this is only for yhe girls and the gays lets be bffs plezzzzz !!! <3 <3 <3

And that's why everyone is so erratic and sees glimpses of dead people. Once David and Keith 'gay up' the kitchen, resolving said gas leak, they all seemingly live long lives.

Hiya everyone, hope you're all well. My name's Jayce and I'm a 17-year-old gay guy from Portland, Oregon. I don't really talk about my sexuality much, although I am pretty gosh darn feminine, what you'd call a femboy I guessssss. Just thought I should add that because, unfortunately, some guys see that as a deal-breaker. It is what it is.
Anyways, I'm a pretty content and bubbly person. Love watching anime, reading some manga as well. Play more games than I should even admit. All the usual teenager stuff, I guess. I do also love nature, space, currently saving up for a telescope actually. Uhhh, that's about all I think. If you wanna know more, feel free to ask whatever. Thanks y'all. <3

This is this sub's official pet checkpoint. We want to see your pets! All of the pets. Every of the pets (I hope my Kevin Malone (Office) reference doesn't go unnoticed there).
This is your weekly feel-good post to show off your precious animals. Let us shower your pets with love and virtual boops. Be sure to tell us your pet's name so we can obsess over them. Are you having a rough week and need a pick-me-up? Come hang out with all these cute pets and feel your worries melt away.
Pictures of David Eason are not allowed, as he is a swamp goblin, not a cute pet.

I'm new to reddit and I don't know if this belongs here, I'm sorry if it doesn't. So I'm in middle school rn and I'm dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts. My gf is my only friend at our school and helps a lot with the thoughts. Every now and then we hug each other for comfort and a lot of the teachers disapprove of it. So now we're not allowed to sit near each other. I know that's not illegal or anything but lately the thoughts have been getting way worse as me and my gf aren't allowed to hang out bc of my homophobic parents. School was only the real place we could interact besides calls which just aren't the same. I tried talking to the school abt it and they said 'oh it's like that for all couples' which is not true. It's just us. The one gay couple. Everyone else can make out in the halls but we can't even be around each other. (Our school is very racist and homophobic) Anyway sry for how long this was I just want a bit of advice.

Anyone here is or was in the military? what's it like to be gay in the military? And how is the love life in that environment? Some story?

So I’ve been apart of the AskGayBlackMen for some time now and I’ve noticed something:
Most—if not all—of the questions that are asked on the subreddit are about fetishizing BBC or people asking to be educated about their attractions to Black people.
Since I’ve joined the subreddit, very few of the questions have been about the experiences of Black gay men. Only a few of the questions have been related to the very specific experiences of Black men who just happen to be gay (not that ALL questions should be related to that).
Maybe this is more of a rant but it’s just something I’ve noticed.
Edit: A lot of the fetish-y posts have been deleted but I received notifications when they were posted.

I was thinking about how big this community continues to grow after the documentary has been already been out for nearly 4 years now. I think the amount of rabid MJ stans def play in a role in why this community is still so active in the first place, it’s because they will go on the defence even if you if so mention the allegations against him. I want to preface I’m a fan of John Lennon and David Bowie, so this isn’t exactly “I’m superior for my taste in famous male celebrities” despite what stans might say and I think any defence of these guys is pretty futile. But the difference is that me and anyone else can insult these men and call them out unprovoked, while any negative word against MJ is bombarded with his twitter defenders. I just think that even without the allegations made in Leaving Neverland, this community would probably exist to talk about how rabid his defenders are.

I talked to my psychologist about how I don't want to have sex with men because I don't think vaginas are appreciated by men, in general.
I told her straight men sexualise and fetishize women who have penises but straight women and gay men don't do that with men who have vaginas. And that this means penises are more liked & valued. She said the vast majority of men have no interest in transgender women pre op and post op and that the vast majority have no interest in women who have penises nor that type of porn, sex work/sex tourism industry.
I said men are more attracted to a performance or costume of femininity (clothes, makeup, hair) than they are to actual women, so they are attracted to feminized men, and find a woman with an unshaven body, an overweight woman, very short hair woman or UNfeminine woman more of a turn off than feminized men. And that men think femininity=submissive and wanting to be fucked. So the men who look feminine are seen in that way. Whereas women and gay men are attracted to both feminine men and masculine men (think of all the androgynous male celeb heartthrobs over the years) and not just to masculinity itself, so they would find feminine men less of a turn off than masculine women. She said not at all.
I said oral is believed to be much more commonly performed on men than performed on women and that this isn't because of men being selfish, since gay men are men and have no issues about giving oral. She said oral is 50/50 between the genders.
I said vaginas are seen as gross and taboo and have stigma and that penises are more casual and normalised. She said not at all. She also said periods are not taboo, just private. I said gay men are known to be far more openly disgusted by and insulting about vaginas than lesbians are about penises. She said not at all. I said lesbians are more open to transgender women than gay men are open to transgender men. She said not at all.
I said large penises, boobs and butts are more appreciated and liked than any vagina type. I said that many bisexual men say that they are bi just for penis but not for the rest of a man and many bisexual women say that they are bisexual but for the rest of a woman but not the vagina. I said sex is not viewed as real sex without a penis and that sex is viewed to be all about the penis, so lesbian sex is not taken seriously. She said not at all.
I said vaginas are seen as submissive and penises are seen as dominant and that people think sexually dominant women are mostly about penis imitation in the form of strap ons and pegging. She said not at all.
I meant these things about people in general (not every single man or woman) and she said I was wrong about the vast majority of people. I even asked my parents and sister in a separate occasion, and they agreed with her. She also said people on Reddit who answer questions and ask questions are not so normal because most mainstream people don't do that, so to be wary of what I read on here.
What do you think?

Basically I believe the following things (about people in a general sense, I don't mean these apply to every man and woman):
I believe that it's thought that sexism towards women is so much more common than sexism towards men, across the world (especially in Muslim countries) and throughout history, even fairly recent history. (But my parents and sister told me it is more common but not so much more and that sexism is not about hating women nor seeing them as lesser inferior beings, that it's about men having had the roles of power and control, because they were stronger so exerted strength to get them, etc. But that women were also thought to have a just as important role, in the home.) They said violence towards women is not about hatred towards women but instead about power, control, men being physically stronger and testosterone. And that the men who commit domestic violence are also the types to get into physical fights with men in pubs, etc.
I believe it's thought that women like men as a gender more than men like women as a gender due to this. Because people think sexism means mistreating, hating, etc. And that it's thought women treat men better and with more respect.
I believe it's thought that women like men in a more well rounded way than men like women, because of sexism and because because people think men objectify women and "only want one thing" from women, and also that if you took sex away... men would prefer men in all other ways (they think women are unfunny, etc and they think that men are superior, etc.)
I believe it's thought that sexism towards men is only a thing as backlash against sexism towards women. So women who hate men hate them for how men treat women.
I believe traditional roles are not seen as equal but different and are instead seen as representing a belief that women are incapable and to serve men. I believe also that it's thought that women are defined by their relationships to men.
I believe that when men do typically female hobbies and jobs women propel them to success and praise them for the bare minimum (which they wouldn't do for a woman with the same skills), like drag queens and gay male makeup artists. But women doing typically male jobs or hobbies are held to higher standards, have to prove themselves more, are not given the same support and are even verbally abused or threatened online. (Female gamers, female Mps, in sport, female celebs, etc.) And that there are boy's clubs that are hostile towards women in male dominated workplaces, but not girl's clubs that are hostile towards men in female dominated workplaces. I believe that having female main characters, idols, etc is not something many men want nor can relate to, while male main characters, idols are fine for women.
I believe it's thought that women (especially teen girls) hate each other, get jealous, compete and have internalised misogny, but that men have stronger bonds, friendships and camaraderie. (Even though my psychologist told me that it's instead believed that women mostly support each other.)
My parents and sister told me I was wrong about all of these things and that most people don't think these things, my sister identifies as a feminist herself. But online and on Reddit everybody has the same views as me. Why the contrast? What are your opinions? (Also when I asked my psychologist, she had the same opinions as my family.)

You are so nice and caring. I hope you still dont view me as this horrible person. I really tried my hardest to be better and I understand that it wasn’t enough and I already did so much damage. Im letting you go and im moving on but a part of me is always gonna wish things turned out differently. This is the first time in my life I genuinely feel like i dont know what to do. I understand all the times you stayed home from middle school bc you were so depressed, i used to not fully understand it but i really do. Its so hard to get you off my mind. I hate that youve moved on i really really hate that idk how youre gonna talk about us. I dont want you to hate me, i dont want you to talk down on our relationship because we both know it was really good. We did work together and we were awesome. I just didn’t know what i wanted and when i finally did, you didnt want the same thing. I stil have hope that one day things we maybe work out and youll text me hi and its be calm, nice and just genuine. Not forced in anyway. It sucks though bc you could just never unblock me on instagram. You might never text me. And the only time we’ve ever ran into each other was when we first met. You ran after me and that was something you wouldnt do but you had the confidence that day to come meet the hot guy on instagram and ask him if he was homophobic for some reason. If i ever do see you in public ill walk up to you and ill ask you that. And ill ask you how youve been. And ill ask you something else. Idk but something. What sucks is im gonna be honest. You were my slut and it was fucking awesome. I hope youre not like that for this guy. Its a genuine fear of mine. One month until that concert where your parents are gone all day. Im not gonna be there i know that, so who will be? I would rather it be z you and s gettinf high outta your minds than anything involving someone else lol. I actually had a really long talk with david about smoking since his gf smokes cigarettes. I think ive learned quite a bit from that. If there ever is a future i think id be okay with you smoking. I think id just wish for it not be like every week like once every two or 3. Idrk why im saying all this. Im just very hurt and angry. I miss you and i still want you back in my life. The meds are kind of helping but they making me super tired 24/7 like 5 hour naps but also 8 hour night sleeps. Just please dont hate me dude. Don’t remember all the times ive begged you in the last month. Im not that pathetic dude. I was really just that in love with you. Ive been thinking about things and youre in a more moved on point where i thought i was. You still care about me i would assume but. You dont LOVE me obviously. I think you just still have love for me. Literally like i said in 9th grade lol. I dont think weve grown apart. I think you pushed me away and i dont blame you. We arent too different people from who we were and i dont think whatever we grow into will be much different. I hope we do meet again one day. Hopefully we can try again. But ik thats far fetched.

Not gay (M20) but I put 1.5 grams of phenibut (a Russian research chemical, similar to Xanax ) up my ass and I can’t pee or shit(not even the drug) , I can’t take full breaths, feels like somethings pushing on my balls, my ribs hurt, my cores tight, my asshole feels stuck?. Been going on for the past hour and a half.
What is happening I used a non-girthy syringe so if it was the act that did it I’m assuming one of y’all has experienced this at least once—-or if not should I be worried? Would prefer a response ASAP so I should know whether or not to chill out
I put it a solid few inches up there and held it and it just felt more and more uncomfortable no matter how I maneuvered it or tweaked until it hurt
Has anybody’s torso/hips spazzed out after being penetrated by drugs or otherwise? I don’t wanna get up or go to sleep till I know what’s up

Who else is into rought gay sex. I'm mean extremely rough, rape, incest rape, etc? I am looking to chat with folks and get tips on my first gay experience

For those LGBT conservatives; Of course, not everyone in the community think the same. You have different life experiences. You are raised with different values. As a result, you have different opinions about certain topics such as economy, immigration, government control and etc. I respect your opinions. However, I started to get suspicious about conservatives. Especially after Florida governors decision to expand “Don’t say Gay bill” to high school students. I also try to understand other conservative commentators like Ben Shapiro. I try to listen his entire speech to understand his point of view. But no some of his statements are baseless. For instance he says “Marriage is between man and woman”. This statement is completely baseless because marriage is just a formal recognition of a relationship by state. Therefore same-sex marriage is okay.
I guess I have three options as a bisexual guy. Progressivism, Liberalism and Centrism.

I know what your thinking, he’s just young and sensitive, his relationship doesn’t matter they are just teens. What do they know. To certain point I agree very much with that. I know we are just young and dumb and don’t really know what love or anything is. But I wish I had friends I could turn to and talk and feel comfortable and trust but no, I have no one so I’m turing to the people of Reddit. Not to mention this is my very first time doing this so please bare with me.
So I (M14) started dating my boyfriend (M15) a few months ago. We have been friends for almost 2 years now. My boyfriend is gay and I am bisexual. Mostly gay.. we all know what that means. I’d like to add my boyfriend has been in a few past relationships and they were all very toxic and unhealthy, I was his first ever actually happy, healthy relationship. I have only ever dated one girl but I ended things about 9 months ago after I came out to her. Me and my boyfriend met through some mutual friends. Every sense we started dating I felt like the luckiest guy ever.
My boyfriend is really sweet and caring he is also fairly attractive. Everything has been great we have done most things you would expect a couple to do. My boyfriend posts pictures of himself on his instagram, it is not uncommon for people to slide into his dms. When people text him he always tells me about it and shows me. About early this month about March 5th 2023 a guy, let’s call him Kevin (M17) started following my boyfriend. He told me about Kevin and like I said it’s not uncommon so I wasn’t to surprised. Once or twice my boyfriend mentioned Kevin but nothing crazy. I had told him it was cool for them to be friends because I trusted him.
About 4 days go by me and my boyfriend are hanging out together with some friends of ours and whenever me and him hang out we always put our phones to the side and spend time together. But this time I noticed he was on his phone a lot more than normal. I asked him about it and he just said it was nothing. I believe him and don’t ask about it anymore. This goes on for about 40 minutes then I ask him about it again and try to look at his phone, He hides it from me sometimes he has never done. I asked him what that was about and we get into a little argument about it. I chose to walk away I didn’t wanna make a scene with all our friends watching.
I don’t remember what it was but something came up and my boyfriend got really emotional and ran outside and started cry. I had gone into another room to give him space. I didn’t see he ran outside crying. I had no clue this was going on he was outside for about 20 minutes and then came back inside. His friend went out to comfort him. Once again I had no clue this was happening. Going back to the friend Kevin, he texted when he was outside and told him about the situation. Kevin started to comfort my boyfriend once again I had no clue this was happening. By the time I back back into the room where everyone was they had all came back inside and I didn’t even know what happened. No one told me or said anything. We went back to hanging out. The following day my boyfriend brought it up and asked why I didn’t come to help and comfort him. I explained that I had no clue and I was sorry.
About 3 days go by him and Kevin kept texting I thought it was just friendly texting because that’s what he told me. My boyfriend is also very emotional snd sensitive. Kevin was a really nice guy. He was very friendly a little to friendly I wish I said something sooner. I didn’t know Kevin was gay either. After those 3 days I noticed they got really close and texted all the time. It started to bother me a little.
One night I asked my boyfriend about it. He seemed very off and you could almost tell he was lying when he said they were just friends. I found out the next day when he feel asleep on my legs when we were hanging out and I went to take a picture on his phone and post it on his stores because he likes all that cute couple stuff. When I unlock his phone and go to his instagram I see his Dm open. Normally I’m not a nosy person but I couldn’t help myself to look at him and Kevin’s Dm. This next killed me. I felt like someone had just punched me in the stomach.
They had been flirting with each other sending all sorts of cute messages and good night and good morning texts with hearts and stuff. I don’t know why but when Kevin said “I really love seeing your name pop up on my phone” and my boyfriend saying “same I love seeing your name too” just completely crushed me. My boyfriend woke up and I was in a lot of pain and anger I didn’t say anything.
The next day I asked him about it and he came clean and told the truth. He was genuinely sorry and genuinely felt bad. I know ima dumbass for doing this but I love him. I told him he needs to block Kevin and make some changes such as being more open and communicating and some other stuff or I wanted to break up. He decided he would block him. He genuinely did care. This was on March 13th 2023.
On March 20th I build up the courage to ask to see all there messages and he shows me. It wasn’t as bad as I thought but it still really hurt me. This next part was out of pure jealousy and anger I know what I did was wrong. I created a fake instagram account pretending to be my boyfriend and text Kevin to get back at him. My idea at first was to act like I wanted him and to apologize for blocking him the just leave him after he would have came back. But my guilt came in mid way through I told Kevin what was actually happening and I told him I was sorry. I then told my boyfriend what I did. He was mad at me at first then he understood me. But Kevin Dm my boyfriend asking about what happened and because my boyfriend showed me there messages earlier that’s day he was unblocked. Kevin snd my boyfriend talked. After all three of us came to a understanding Kevin asked “so can we all be friends”
My boyfriend said yes. I said yes at first but then 1 day goes by and I knew Kevin still liked him and it was eating me inside because I didn’t want to be a controlling boyfriend saying they can’t be friends. Yesterday I told my boyfriend how I feel about everything he agrees to stop talking to Kevin but you can tell my boyfriend did still care for him. He felt bad because Kevin was a victim when he was younger. Kevin opened up to my boyfriend about it and tried him and my boyfriend had to basically tell him he didn’t wanna talk to Kevin after he opened up about that part of his life.
My boyfriend still sided with me and cute Kevin out. I felt great until last night. Me and my boyfriend finally got on good terms came clean and wanted to start fresh. We really did like each other and wanted to be together. As we were opening up he told me he still had feelings for Kevin and ever since I made them stop talking they got stronger. He “thinks about Kevin a lot “. I guess out of all of this my question is what do I do. I can’t get mad at him that’s not cool he opened up about it to me I don’t want to negotiate him and make him regret opening up to me. I just don’t know what I should do. It bothers me a lot but what can I really do.
If you got this far thank you. I know this probably doesn’t make any sense at all but I just don’t know what to do. I know we are young but I feel like I really do care about him.