I've been lonely lately and missed having someone that I can game with and shoot the shit with throughout the night. I love just hanging out on discord and playing or talking about our day. Some of my all time games are stardew valley, rimworld, apex, TFT, and don't starve. As long as it's multiplayer though I'm down to play anything!
Now I am also looking for a girl that doesn't mind some flirting. I figure I'd be upfront about so there aren't any confusions. I'd want us to feel comfortable roasting each other one sec and flirty the next.
A little about me. I work at a hospital so my schedule can be all over the place sometimes. In my space time I love to watch nba, play games, binge watch tv. I love listening to songs from the 90s and 2000s but l can listen to almost any genre. Oh and I love making really bad jokes or puns. Talk to me long enough and I'll make you eyeroll for sure Also age and location don't really matter to me. So if you're interested drop me a message

Hacking Websites; Hire a Website Hacker to Hack Website and Data
What is the best way to hack a website? For some time now we have been hearing about web server vulnerabilities, including SQL injection, cross site scripting XSS and denial of service attacks. To protect our websites from such attacks, we must try to prevent attackers from accessing them in the first place. One of the most common ways hackers try to gain access to our websites is by trying to guess usernames and passwords. It may sound funny but if a hacker knows the usernames and passwords of many websites then he can use this to gain access to any database on the Internet.
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This means that if we cannot protect our databases by changing our usernames and passwords every so often then the chance of someone gaining access to them increases dramatically. Even a small number of user names and passwords can increase a hacker's confidence enough to give him access to a database. In order to prevent this kind of attack on our websites, we must try to prevent the hackers getting into the database. The database is obviously the one that contains our customer records, login details and other important usernames and passwords.
The database security is very important because if a hacker is able to get into the database he can use it to do any damage to our company. The security of the database should be strong, but unfortunately it is not always possible to create such database security, which is why it is very important for us to change our usernames and passwords every now and then. However, even if we cannot change our usernames and passwords very often the security of our database is still very important and we should consider using database security software like the commercial products available in the market.
How to Hack a Login Page
One of the most common hacking techniques is the denial of service attack. This is where the attacker obtains a legitimate-looking website that may look legitimate but is actually a phishing attack aimed at stealing sensitive information like usernames and passwords. Once the hacker gained access to our website, he or she can use this information to escalate their own membership in the system, create spam links, delete a user's files and folders, and perform other harmful activities such as redirecting email addresses.
A common site that we encounter that is targeted by these denial of service attacks is PayPal. This is because PayPal is one of the most used websites online. Apart from PayPal, another common website hacking techniques is the clickjacking attack. This involves the hacker finding out how to trigger the vulnerable link in Adobe Flash so that the pages he or she is trying to access turns into an error page instead of allowing the user to proceed to the login page.
The hacker can also try to phish usernames and passwords of various financial institutions including those run by the United States government. Some of the financial information that the hackers can obtain include Social Security numbers, credit card numbers, bank account numbers, and passwords. Once this information falls into the wrong hands, it can be very difficult and complicated to retrieve them especially if the user was using a secure server.
How to Hack Website Admin Password.
Hackers, who do not understand the consequences of their actions, are prone to using 'hacking' methods when trying to crack the security of a website. Hacking is the process of gaining access to another person's computer without their consent. The way in which you could hack into a website is through one of the many security holes that exist within the programming language used by websites to create and maintain their functionality. Most of the time when people try to gain access to a website they do so by clicking on links that appear within the text or in the background of a video.
However, some people try to gain access to a website by bypassing all of the security measures which are placed upon it and this is known as 'Hacking the Web'. When one tries to hack into a website, it is often the case that they attempt to use the website admin password to gain access to the inner workings of the server. In order to hack into a website, one would have to crack the security password which is usually set by the webmaster and is usually difficult to guess. If a user is successful in cracking this password, it then opens up the door for further attacks to the system.
Attacks could range from stealing personal information, such as usernames and passwords, as well as damaging or corrupting files and programs. In the case of a personal computer, if a website admin password is stolen, it could mean that the owner of that computer will not be able to login to their own computer until they either reset the password or obtain a new one.
How to Hack Website Username and Password.
If you are one of the many people who have lost their passwords for their accounts on different websites, then you are probably wondering how to hack a website username and password. With the rapid increase in computer crimes such as identity theft and credit card fraud, there are a lot of unscrupulous people who would like to have access to your information.
This includes your bank account numbers, social security numbers, passwords, and credit cards. Hackers are getting smarter each day, and it has become easier for them to figure out ways to steal these valuable pieces of information. However, it is still not impossible to protect yourself from having your account details stolen.
Hack Website Online Tool.
How to hack school website it’s relatively easy to hack a website if you have knowledge of programming. Various programs exist that are programmed to automatically crawl the Internet to find websites that have changed their passwords, or have posted advertisements. These programs can easily be programmed to take down URLs and alter grades on the fly.
Once they've hacked a college website, other websites will be affected as well, and so forth. In the case of how to hack school website, other students could be caught stealing classmates' homework and grading process information. Many high schools have already lost money due to students using their credit card to buy books and other items off of a website that was hacked.
How to Hack a Website and Change it.
If you are interested in how to hack a website and change it, then you are not alone. Hackers are always looking for new ways to get at and steal information from other computers. When you are trying to learn how to hack a website and change it, you will need to understand that when you have found the right type of vulnerability, you can use this information to access some of the files that are not normally accessible.
For example, if you were to find an HTML password leak, then you might be able to change the code to display something else instead of just the plain password on the page. Hacking a website and changing it is not difficult, but you will need to know what you are doing or you could end up having some pretty bad results. Some of the things that you might want to consider if you are wondering how to hack a website and change it includes finding out if there is any type of cross-site scripting.
If the hackers already have some knowledge of the programming language that the website is using. Another thing to consider is if there is any type of cross-browser compatibility issue between the website and one of the different browsers that support the script that is being used on the website. Then, if you have the right information on the file that needs to be hacked, you will be able to find all of the information that you need to carry out the hacking process successfully.
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I live with and manage some heavy mental health stuff and I have been out of counseling for a few years now. While I am pretty functional at this point of my life, I do still collect disability and SSI for it. As stated, I do pretty good at self-care and putting the work in and have done so for a long time. Regular exercise and practice of jiu-jitsu, art projects, eating good, going for walks, knowing my boundaries and learning how and when to say no. I have learned the ins and outs of my disorders. I have managed this without meds for over a decade. I quit them after facing what would ultimately fall under clinical abuse as doctors were not listening to me, and the meds were not helping, yet was being prescribed more and more. At the height of it, 17 daily pills, gained over 150 pounds that too me from 145 to over 300. Took years to lose the weight.
Anyway, there are times I fall short. That is okay. However, it makes me realize that I should explore the options of trying to find another decent counselor and perhaps entertaining a very light medication regiment.
Any local clinics Im looking up seem to have disastrous tales. I know social services have been being gutted, and its a brutal field to work in for a few reasons. If anybody has any good leads, be they public sector like a Best Self type place, or a random private practice that accepts medicaid/medicare, then please let me know.
I live in Allentown but I am capable of driving if need be.
Thank you for any leads/thoughts/advice/help in this matter.

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I enjoy gaming a lot and would love to play with people. I play a lot of multiplayer games. I love stardew and halo the most, but i play zelda, mario, doom and a whole lot of other games so just ask me what else i play.
On my free time i like to write about fantasy short stories and Or about my days.
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I like to explore more of nature by heading into a nearby forest.
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Hello all,
So, the title.
I am wondering about anyone's experiences with brainspotting here? It is something I've recently come across in the last 6 months. See, when I first heard about it, I thought, "Oh wow, this sounds like it could help me more than EMDR".
A quick overview of my therapeutic journey which gives some background to the question:

1. So, when I began, I was not living around my family, and I had no idea that a safe environment would bring out all sorts of erratic behaviors and thought patterns. I was basically used to the chaos, so I tried to create the chaos in the safety/peaceful environment to create stability for myself. Rational, I know (/s).
   
2. The safety created an onset of paralyzation. My poor husband at the time had to suffer through periods of me being mute and literally unable to speak. I would isolate myself in deep depression for days, and not talk to him or my closest friends. I was working on wounds from my GCNbrother.
   
3. By chance, my therapist did ACT therapy. Overtime, I had a slight onset of Bipolar Disorder, and fortunately for me, ACT is similar to DBT which works well for people with BPD - hence why I naturally found the thought of CBT laughable lol (which I read does not work well for people with BPD, though I know there are exceptions).
   
4. We got married and my new onsets got TERRIBLY WORSE. I knew something was wrong, and for the sake of myself and our marriage, I dove deeper into therapy and trying to work on myself. I focused on my maternal wounds. Previously, as I grew deeper in relationship with my husband while we were dating, I slowly struggled with Reactive Attachment Disorder. It progressively got worse as we grew deeper and got more serious, but NOWHERE near as bad as after we were married (as well as my depression). Pregnancy exacerbated it, to the point of fantasizing about suicide. Ofc I was never going to do it, and no, it wasnt just "prenatal depression" - it was severe struggle with RAD and BPD. But our baby motivated me a thousand times harder to figure out what was going on and eradicate it, because as I thought to myself at the time, I was NOT going to put our baby through my unresolved struggles and disorders. No way in hell. I was going to show bb a healthy mother, a healthy bond, attention, love, appreciation, etc, everything I wasnt given.. BUT first I needed to tackle my struggles. Those 9 months were like therapy Marine soldier mode. Regardless, it caused us so much suffering and struggles, I can't even begin to describe it.
   
5. Throughout this entire time, I listened to The Place We Find Ourselves podcast, and one thing which was incrediblyyyyyy helpful was the therapist's teachings on how to focus on bodily sensation recognitions. I put this into practice as best as I could the entire time, and I believe it aided the healing process, I literally cannot stress this enough. The podcast therapist was slowly teaching me how to turn my oppression on its head, and I'm forever grateful. My therapist loves the podcast, too, so we were definitely in the same wavelength. (I can't link it, so here's the page on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/36bU2hcguX97EDOi9Ja0tQ?si=ncif7c0CRJaawNHoovHVcg)
   
6. We went through an extremely life changing, traumatic event. And I'm convinced the event affected my brain, which "bound" me more to my husband & the safety he provided my heart. The event basically was a 2 second culmination and effect of like 2-3 years of therapy work. I wish it hadnt happened that way, but it did. After that, I no longer struggle(d) with BPD or RAD. I had no idea not struggling with love, and accepting his affection was so freeing. Or my MIL's love, either, who is the mom I didnt have. Remnants come up now and then, but they are like levels 1-5 out of 10, compared to level 50+ out of 10 from before. (Husband is truly the most patient and loving man, and I cant believe hes still by my side, but here he is ;______;)
   

Okay - on to the question.
At one point, I stayed with a friend for 2 weeks to give us space and processing time. Unbeknownst to me, my husband had an appt with our marriage therapist (we attended sessions from the time we were engaged, all the way through being married). He suggested that maybe i had RAD, and thought brainspotting would help. My husband didnt mention this to me until now, 1 year later, when I brought up my interest in brainspotting recently.
I know it's a bit new, but I looked more into it, and am more interested in working with it. One thing I heard is that it helps your body/mind "connect" to memories/events you are disconnected with. I think it could help my leftover remnants and help me heal more, since I fall under the category of people who it could benefit, and it seems some of us here would, too. I think I could be a candidate, too, due to the previous severe symptoms I had.
Here is a link with more info: https://brainspotting.com/about-bsp/what-is-brainspotting/
My thought is to find a therapist who is trained in brain spotting, and work with them temporarily. Then, maybe have them share the session notes with my therapist now, since I'd like to keep working with them. I
Has anyone here used this before? What was your experience like? How many sessions did you do? If you have, what have been the biggest improvements you've noticed? Did you try any previous techniques that didnt help as much as brainspotting did? If you havent, what are your thoughts or comments on it?
Thanks, all

Hello, I’d really love some feedback on my feature. It’s at 84 pages currently. I was doing my best impression of the worst person in the world when writing it.
Logline: A corporate worker from America falls in love with a German girl while on a business trip, but their long-distance relationship is put to the test as they struggle with cultural differences and the challenges of maintaining a connection across continents. When the German girl meets someone new, the American must confront his fears and decide if he's willing to fight for their love, or let her go
I’d like to know if the dialogue sounds natural, if the character voices sound distinct, if the comedy lands, and if the story is engaging. Thank you in advance! the distance between

Retro Joshi #435: JWP December 23, 1999, GAEA December 27, 1999 & Jd’ December 28, 1999 - Azumi Hyuga vs. Ran YuYu, Chigusa Nagayo & Meiko Satomura vs. Lioness Asuka & Sonoko Kato, Lioness Asuka vs. Cooga
JWP Solid Slider 12/23/1999 Korakuen Hall, Tokyo
4-5 minute were shown of each of the undercard matches. We had Acute Sae vs. Chihiro Nakano, Yuki Miyazaki vs. Tsubasa Kuragaki and Devil Masami vs. Kyoko Ichiki. None of these looked like particularly good matches, but it’s nice to see some faces we don’t often see like Miyazaki and Ichiki who are pretty good, even Chihiro has improved since leaving GAEA. Their opposition was pretty bad though. They showed 9:49 / 15:53 of Command Bolshoi & Carlos Amano vs. Dynamite Kansai & Kayoko Haruyama. Bolshoi submitted Haruyama. It was just your typical ** JWP match, you could guess what to expect - Kansai dominated, Haruyama wasn’t too good, Bolshoi and Amano were fine but it was pretty much just spots. Next came Azumi Hyuga vs. Ran YuYu, which we’ll come back to, and the show ended with the JWP ’99 PURE HEART SPECIAL PARTY which featured the ’99 awards where Kana Mizaki was named MVP. That’s such a weird decision because they never pushed her in any meaningful way and the other three of the fab four were pushed way ahead of her. Mizaki is actually the best wrestler in the group though, her three peers are basically focused on spots and bring little else to the table. As pure workers they are all stronger than Mizaki, but Mizaki is the one who has more a grasp on how a pro-wrestling match works at this point and she is far superior with psychology and selling.
JWP Openweight Title Match: Azumi Hyuga vs. Ran YuYu (24:22)
Hyuga jobbing to Bolshoi recently was a pretty good hint that we were likely to see a new champion here. They started out hot and for pure work, these really are the best two on the entire scene, everything they do looks great, they’re crisp and they work well together. They still don’t have the brain to work these long matches though and you end up with a lot of wasted time and stuff that just doesn’t go anywhere. The first half of the match was a lot of holds, they were all done well, Ran was really cranking up on a sleeper at one point but it came across as little more than time killing. They had a slapping fight at about the 12 minute mark and from there, the shit was on. They picked things up and it turned into high quality back and forth match with great execution, neat counters, big moves and good near falls. Both hit their finishers at the end but it wasn’t enough to get the win on this day, they both booted each other in the face for a double down and it was anyones match. After an exchange of German Suplexes, Hyuga went for a Destiny Hammer but Ran avoided it. Hyuga came back immediately with a boot and looked to finish but Ran caught her with a rana to win the title. The frustrating thing with these two is that they should be putting on excellent matches all the time but their mental blocks mean that they’ve been outdone throughout the year by the Jd’ kids, who might not be as talented but actually have the ability to work smarter matches. ***1/2
GAEA G-PANIC #29 Prophecy Hitting (12/27/1999 Korakuen Hall)
Gala night footage from 12/19, that was pretty damn funny. Then they showed highlights of the year.
Sakura Hirota & Toshie Uematsu vs. Chikayo Nagashima & Kaori Nakayama
They only showed the finish which saw Hirota roll up Nakayama to get the win.
Sakura Hirota & Toshie Uematsu vs. Mayumi Ozaki & Akira Hokuto (5:02 / 8:41)
All spots and brawling. Hirota and Uetamsu were getting thrashed but interference from KAORU using barbed wire prevented Ozaki from getting back to the ring so Hirota got a count out win. *1/2
KAORU, Toshiyo Yamada & Saika Takeuchi vs. Aja Kong, RIE & Sugar Sato (11:34 / 14:05)
Takeuchi showed some spirit, but she had no chance. I like her, she just throws everything she has at her opponents even if there’s nothing she can do to them. RIE used the barbed wire and busted her open. Action was good throughout and it had some structure. Everyone did their job well enough, except RIE who still can’t swing a weapon. Aja was the best as usual. The finish saw everyone getting taken out, leaving RIE alone. Yamada did her Reverse Gory Special, and then Rocket Launchered the bloody and battered Takeuchi onto RIE to give her the big pinfall, which was pretty cool. ***1/4
Chigusa Nagayo & Meiko Satomura vs. Lioness Asuka & Sonoko Kato (7:40)
This was a really big match on paper with the tension between Satomura and Kato and the Crush Gals on opposite sides, but it was 8 minutes and only existed for the purposes of a big angle. The best exchanges in the match were between Lioness and Satomura, and obviously Kato and Satomura work well together. The match was going along okay, Ozaki, Hokuto and the rest of the group ran in and beat the shit out of everyone in the match, so it was thrown out. Chigusa and Lioness fought back and did their old signature chop spot and a double team suplex, which was awesome and blew the roof off Korakuen Hall. Aja wasn’t too happy with Ozaki and Hokuto, and they seemed to set up Ozaki & Hokuto vs. Lioness & Aja. Match was nothing, but the post match angle was great. *1/2
Jd' Get Miracle Burning Hot 1999 12/28/1999 Korakuen Hall
They showed most of the undercard in digest form. Sachie Abe & Obatchi Iizuka vs. Hiroyo Muto & Ranmaru, Saya Endo vs. KAZUKI and Crusher Maedomari & Morimatsu vs. The Bloody & Fang Suzuki. Nothing of value was lost there, but Obatchi did a Sky Twister Press, or tried to, she did it no worse than ASARI does most of the time.
Megumi Yabushita vs. Yuko Kosugi (9:26)
This was fun and the action was fine, but it was pretty short and not really the same level we’re used to seeing from them. Yabushita won this one with a Tiger Suplex Hold. The highlight was her doing a swan dive tope con giro. Kosugi gave her typically solid performance, not sure if Yabushita got hurt at some point, but she was looking quite sluggish with her suplexes later in the match, particularly with her bridges. **1/2
Sumie Sakai vs. Nanae Takahashi (9:33 / 13:33)
Sakai was nothing short of excellent in this match. Her work was so smooth and fast, and she was on point with everything. The problem was Nanae dragged the match way down with her clumsiness. Nanae just can’t do anything, she sits around in holds and when she tries to work fast it’s a recipe for disaster. Here, she managed to screw up Sakai’s top rope rana by slipping off, which made for a nasty landing where Sakai almost landed on her head. She didn’t even execute her Nanarocker properly, which she got the win with. **1/2
TWF Title Match: Lioness Asuka vs. Cooga (18:31)
The final match of 1999, and the final match of Cooga’s career. Lioness was great here and did the best job of carrying Cooga of anyone not named Jaguar Yokota. The thing with Cooga is she’d have been a perfectly fine mid-level worker if she had the fire she did during her run as Miori Kamiya, she understands psychology a bit and has some nice offense, but it always looks so pathetic because there’s no impact at all behind it. This was the typical Lioness formula match, plenty of action, Lioness dominates, she uses her tables, but she gave Cooga enough and sold, so Cooga was a credible threat to her. Cooga looked better than she normally does thanks to Lioness but the usual issues around her offense remained. Cooga did score a pretty nice kick and a Destiny Hammer to get her biggest near fall of the match. Lioness busted out the moonsault, which is a rarity, and later she powerbombed Cooga from the apron through a table, then did a diving footstomp out in the bleachers. Cooga kicked out of a couple of Liger Bombs in the ring and she even kicked out of the Tower Hacker Bomb, so she had to bust out the Lioness Surprise Drop, which is basically a Fisherman’s Buster turned into a Falcon Arrow to get the win. Cooga unmasked after the match and retired. ***1/2

This is gonna be a lengthy theory so i'll try to keep it as short as possible. First, we have to recap what just transpired in chapter 79 and why. Everyone's interpretation is going to be different until more of the story unfolds.
I believe Kawaki channeled Eida's "Omnipotence" ability causing an effect similarly to when Eren Yeager touched Historia's hand for the first time. This resulted in a massive Kotoamatsukami effect. Now, I say it's more inline with Kotoamatsukami rather than Tsukuyomi or Izanagi due to a few things. (Remember this ability results on the caster's desires, meaning Eida just wanted (desired) to be loved, thus putting everyone in love with her. When Kawaki, a full Otsutsuki touched her, it enabled him to use the full scale of Eida's ability). There are 2 things to notice:

1. There are people immune to Eida's Charm/Desire.
2. When the jonin first seen Kawaki and Eida for the first time since Eida's massive crescent moon appeared in the sky, the first question he asked Kawaki was where the scar went on his face.

This leads me to believe it's a genjutsu rather than an altered reality due to it only effecting memories and not actual events. Second, we are gonna jump the gun a little bit here as i'm going to make a big assumption here that it only affected whoever is in the range of where it was casted (meaning everyone on the planet). Now, I will discuss who wasn't affected by the Kawaki/Eida jutsu.

1. Kawaki / Boruto - Otsutsuki aren't affected by Eida's abilities/ Jutsus'
2. Eida / Daemon - Eida's power doesn't work on blood relatives or herself.
3. Sarada / Sumire - TBD\*
4. Naruto / Hinata - Sealed in another dimension, not on planet
5. Code - In another dimension splitting up the 10 tails, not on planet
6. Kashin Koji - On Mt Myoboku, not on planet
7. Amado - During all of Amado's interactions with Eida, he's never been head over heels like everyone else was.
8. Honorable Mention: Sasuke (Sharingan User) and Shikadai (He wasn't affected like his teammates Chocho and Inojin was.

I think the reason why Sarada isn't affected by Eida is the fact Sarada has a sharingan. It's said that sharingan users are less susceptible to genjutsu due to their ability to Chakra Coat their Psyche. The sharingan has been stated to tell when someone is in a genjutsu due to seeing irregularities in a person's chakra flow. This common connection between Sarada's sharingan and Eida's genjutsu leads me to believe this is why she is immune. If that is the case, Sasuke will also fall into this category alongside all sharingan users.
Speaking of Sasuke, if Eida's ability is a genjutsu, then sasuke never even got caught in it. There's a specific paneling done right as Eida's crescent moon spreads into the sky. First, it's a shot with Konohamaru and Sasuke both looking toward the light in the sky after Kawaki used Eida's power.
Then, a few panels go by with a jonin telling the leaf shinobi's via Ino's Mind Transmission Jutsu that he found Kawaki and Eida's with him. After that, It's a panel with Shikamaru asking why Kawaki's in such a place, 12 kilometers EAST of Kaoiwa. Then, the very next shot is him saying he can sense Boruto's chakra, 3 kilometers WEST of Kaoiwa. The second Sasuke hears (because Ino is connecting all Leaf Shinobi via Mind Transmit Jutsu) he immediately stops. You can see the dust kick up from behind as he is about to B-line it to Boruto's location (his right foot is far infront of his left making a stopping motion as his cape flies in the background from the speed he was going). Furthermore, Sasuke has always noticed when Momoshiki is talking to Boruto (Even in the house arrest home, Sasuke was able to sense Momoshiki while being near the Hokage building (somewhere with Naruto to be exact) .
Now, Sasuke was heading to Kawaki's last known position but that's 15 kilometers from where Boruto is. It seems he have higher urgency to get to Boruto than he was getting to Kawaki. He knows something's up and I predict Sasuke will meet up with Boruto to protect him. Sasuke will leave the village with atleast Boruto as an ally or die infront of Boruto and Sarada. (We all know Sasuke has to die for Boruto and Sarada's character development and so Sarada can unlock her Mangekyou. Probably too soon for that though).
Next, let's talk about Sumire and her best friend Nue. Nue in general might be a special type of tailed beast. Along with Sharingan users, there is another group of people who easily get out or not tricked by genjutsu (since we are assuming that's what her ability is), Jinchuurikis who have total control of or cooperate with their tailed beast.
Let's recap on Nue a little bit. (Mostly anime only but I doubt this is filler)

1. Nue is a Yokai which is a "strange apparition". by not far from a tailed beast.
2. Nue was the created result of Project Gozu Tenno by The Root, Danzo and Tanuki (Sumire's dad)
3. Gozu Tenno acts a seal/gate using Hashirama Cells.
4. Nue does not reside in this dimension (sometimes) and requires a summoning contract.
5. Sasuke said they came close to replicating Kaguya's secret techniques after he studied
6. Toneri said the gate Nue opened had been sealed.

Now that's out the way, lets continue. Nue is indeed special by all means having it being a strange tailed beast with Otsutsuki's relations, I don't think it can be affected by Eida's charm/omnipotence and that's why Sumire isn't affected. Given with what was said, we can be 100% sure Nue is the reason why Sumire is immune to Eida. (I know the summoning contract was said to be destroyed and she now only retains a portion of it on her palm.- it doesnt change the fact)
Also, When Boruto tried to summon something (when he never did a blood contract) he accidently summoned Nue's tail (regarded as a large snake thing at that time). I think something else is in the works for Sumire/Nue to build upon her character more and im leaning more towards Otsutsuki than jinchuuriki (hence why she has more panels than most of boruto's friends). If it is Jinchuuriki exclusive atleast we know Killer Bee won't be affected by Eida's power either.
Lastly, we can finally discuss storylines that haven't been wrapped up yet

1. Code will still be on his quest for vengeance against the leaf and Kawaki as he shouldnt be affected because he was in the 10 tails dimension making Claw Grimes.
2. Kakashi's first manga appearance. With Naruto being sealed away and from the first 33 seconds of Boruto ep 1, you will see there isn't another face on the right side of Naruto's monument, which leads me to believe Kakashi will come back as Hokage until another Hokage candidate comes of age similarly to how Hiruzen did for Minato.
3. Kashin Koji will make his return soon now that Eida's big moment is out the way (can't have him being messed up by a genjutsu. Him and Amado have loose ends they need to take care of such as Amado sending Koji to kill Jigen and die to Isshiki knowing he wasn't powerful enough. Amado can easily shut him down via voice command.
4. Amado in general. Every time he speaks and acts, its for the purpose of his own benefit. He might just be the "suspicious" guy but anyone who hides everything from everyone all the time must have ulterior motives. I assume he has more Otsutsuki connections than he's leading on. If he is caught in Eida's "Omnipotence", it's gonna be a weird situation when he tries to shut down Boruto and ends up just shutting down Kawaki instead.
5. We have the mystery of the 2 Otsutsuki's with damaged shrines. (Soon there stories will be told)
6. Sarada and Sumire's fight against Eida (as foreshadowed by Shikamaru)
7. Sumire stopping Amado's grand plan. (There's no one closer to Amado than her)
8. Daemon's comments on Himawari power (Her training becoming a ninja soon with her parents disappearance)
9. Those other 2 Mitsuki clones with his memories all backed up on a storage drive. Sasuke will get Orochimaru to help. (if you'd like to know more about my orochimaru theory, click here: https://www.reddit.com/Boruto/comments/120bcon/what_orochimaru_truly_knows_and_whats_his/)
10. Amado's true goal revealed (there's no reaason he would still be hiding things if told the full truth, he's a man of many secrets).
11. The world finding out they had they're memories altered.

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Now we established many threads connecting to storylines that haven't been finished yet we can imply where the story will go next. I don't know the order for sure but i can guarantee most of what was discuessed will happen or be revealed. Thank you to all of those for reading. it's been long. I know I took way longer to write this than I had planned. Hopefully someone can take something or build upon what I think.

Hey, I'm looking to talk to some people and see if it ends with us falling for each other, becoming mortal enemies, or maybe becoming best friends. Honestly, I'm hoping for all three. I'm a pretty happy-go-lucky guy. I love to meet new folks and hear what they have to say, though I am warning you that I love to joke around the first time we talk. As for my hobbies, I'm sort of a homebody. I usually read history or entertainment news, draw, code, and play games. But I do like to skate and go shooting with my air soft guns. Regarding what I'm looking for in a girlfriend, someone's appearance really doesn't matter, as I'm looking for someone I can be chill with but also pour my heart out to in the heat of the moment because that's whats really beautiful . I would really prefer someone from the US of A, but I can make exceptions if you're really cool either way. DM me and I'll get back to you when I can

Hey, I'm looking to talk to some people and see if it ends with us falling for each other, becoming mortal enemies, or maybe becoming best friends. Honestly, I'm hoping for all three. I'm a pretty happy-go-lucky guy. I love to meet new folks and hear what they have to say, though I am warning you that I love to joke around the first time we talk. As for my hobbies, I'm sort of a homebody. I usually read history or entertainment news, draw, code, and play games. But I do like to skate and go shooting with my air soft guns. Regarding what I'm looking for in a girlfriend, appearance really doesn't matter, as I'm looking for someone I can be chill with but also pour my heart out to in the heat of the moment. I would really prefer someone from the US of A, but I can make exceptions if you're really cool either way. DM me and I'll get back to you when I can

I'm new to Stardew Valley and I've just bought 600G worth of seeds and they've just... disappeared. I didn't sell them or misplace them, Pierre just took my money and gave me nothing, though my inventory was full it should've just dropped on the ground. It's this a bug?

So, for context, I'm trying to write up some sheets for my character's adopted kids in case they end up scooped into some of the adventures or manage to insert themselves into some of the party's antics. The problem is I'm not entirely sure how to best balance them to make it believable they're young while also showcasing their skills and experience.
For example, one of the kids is a 13 year old summer eladrin who is constantly getting into fights. She would be described as "Surprisingly strong" for her age, has combat experience since she's always trying to fight people for "practice" yet had never had true combat training. Currently I have her set as a level one barbarian. I think the Rage feat is a little busted for a little elf though, but I'm not sure how to alter it.
The other child in question is her twin sister, a 13 year old spring eladrin. She knows a few spells thanks to her various family members teaching her and would fall into the bard category when she "levels" per se, but I don't know if making her a level one bard is necessarily appropriate for her? I'm trying not to make either child seem overpowered for their age but reflecting their capabilities isn't easy otherwise. Not to mention I have no clue what would be appropriate stats to give them.
Any suggestions or previous things you guys have done/ruled similar to this would be really helpful, I mainly want ideas that won't trigger our rules lawyer

I read a whole lot, Books, manga, webtoons, everything, and I would like to have a device that has a display that lets me do those things very very comfortably. I also want to use it for the concessional gaming - COD Mobile or whatever else seems like fun at the moment. I tend to store a lot of movies on an SD card to consume content too. I also want to draw, using the Krita or Infinite Painter, and try digital note taking. It would be good to know that it doesn't have any streaming issues (software or hardware wise)
I currently use a Samsung Tab A7 lite. It is decent, but the display is not the best at all. So while reading is fairly good for manga or books, for everything else where detail is necessary it falls down hard. It is also super slow with multitasking and gaming is not feasible.
I don't mine not having more software updates, I can settle for the occasional security update. I do not care for using this as a conference device or to take pictures.
Advise me on what is the best out of the two I have listed in the title, and feel free to tell me any examples of where there are unique things you have experienced that I should be aware of when using either device if it falls into what I want to do. I basically want to consume media and enjoy it and not have to deal with terrible display quality or slow performance.
Thankss a bunch, Be safe. :))))

This is a long post! Tl;Dr at the end!
So I just started a new run today, modded to hell and back but primarily QoL stuff, Britas, They Knew, Only Cure (it's a fun alternative when the hazmats are all hiding) and Don't Feed The Zombies and Susceptible. I turn off DFTZ hordes because they're broken, and instead zombies only eat corpses they happen to wander past, which is fun.
I have just shy of 300 hours in the game, but don't let that fool you I'm really, really bad at it, so I'm doing my absolute best here to give it a good good try. My character is Maya Hallman, dyslexic burglar who has a lot of focus on being small, quick and stealthy. I know stealth is usually pretty, meh, but when it starts at 3 and you have inconspicuous and graceful it's usually pretty handy to have.
It's worth noting I also installed Evolving Traits World for this run and for the first time. So it turns out Maya is also super anxious and has a lot of trouble sleeping, which is incredibly relatable. This becomes relevant later. Ish.
Maya spawmed in Riverside, at a library and got a good early bump to a lot of recipes through sitting and reading magazines. She was also prepared for the apocalypse and started with a spiked baseball bat, and a hunting knife. There was a commercial kitchen nearby with some steak and chicken just sitting on the benches, so she slapped that in the oven and had a meal for for a queen. Then she went and found a quaint little house free of zombies, behind a tall invincible fence, and dropped her bags there, got changed into her pajamas -a teal satin neglige she definitely didn't pull off a zombie- and slept.
Or so I thought, instead of sleeping, every zombie that walked past the house stirred her awake. So did every single random sound event brought on by the Random Sound Events mod. So the first night was tough to sleep through, even at maximum fatigue. But eventually, after several hours of trying, Maya was exactly well rested enough to get to it. Some powerful item organising later, some early morning Exposure Survival and a bowl of pasta later, we head out to start sweeping through the street.
There were a lot of zombies, and the baseball bat didn't last too long, neither did the hunting knife. But we found and axe and a crowbar so we have backup weapons and they're pretty good. Maya is a burglar anyway, she knows her way around a crowbar pretty well. Using our new weapons and a mostly cleared of food street, we go just up the road to a nearby gigamart. The back door is not only unlocked, but entirely missing so we walk straight on in.
Aaaand set off an alarm. Shit. Maya grabs three fridges and two shelving units worth of food and drink without looking at it, runs home through a couple other houses, and dumps all the food in the fridge or the cupboard. Among the goods are some seven sacks of fruits and vegetables, and about thirty kilos of non-perishables. Tinned foods, cereals and even some chips. A not so bad haul!
I proceed to immediately forget about the alarm, and the crazed blitz out of the store witnessed by many zombies.
A slightly more restful night, and we head to a nearby school parking lot, where I find a bike with a full tank of gas, and a jeep of some description with cracked windows, but otherwise pretty well maintained. We get the bike hotwired no problem and find a key to the jeep. But there's a really fancy looking sports car I'm interested in looking inside of, so I decided to test out one of my other mods I've never really played with.
Better Lockpicking! Maya grabs her newly baptised in blood crowbar, and I get a fun little minigame to pry open the door. I've never done this before, but it's cool! It also drains endurance like nothing else I've ever seen before, and my endurance seems to be coming back much slower than normal, but that's fine. I just want to get inside the car!
Well something I didn't think of, is all the noise this would make, and the inability to fight due to not having any endurance left. All those zombies dragged in by the alarm have been quietly and politely snacking on corpses in my street but otherwise leaving me alone. Until now, because why eat a dead corpse when you can eat a fresh one! So a horde some fifty or sixty thick comes shambling over to contact me in regards to my new cars extended warranty, and take a deposit of flesh upfront. After lots of crazed dragging around, Maya ends up just barely jumping on the bike and getting out of there.
One cool thing is whatever model bike this is has no horn, and instead pressing Q just revs the engine really loudly. So we do that for a while to drag zombies away from home, but it's not good enough in the end and we have to crash somewhere else for the night. I clear out no less than three houses, and STILL have to move onto a fourth house because all the exhausted attacking takes too long and draws too much attention from the zeds. I forgot to clear the fourth. Maya is so tired she passes out and sleeps for six continuous hours before waking up for the first time.
Too rested to sleep more, and with our sleeping pills at home, I check the bathroom to see if there's any in there, and get greeted by two zombies who I had no idea were in the house but of course, it makes sense. I did literally just, not check the house at all. Thankfully Maya is rested, so she takes them down with no worries. No sleeping pills, but that's fine. We find a second jeep, in absolutely perfect condition, and fill her up with fuel siphoned from the bike. Which had so much in it there's even still a bit left in case of an emergency!
We drive back home, and find that the hordes have moved around but are definitely still in the area. But with time, motivation, and a detour through the school, I drag them off in little clusters and slowly whittle them down. I even find a bottle of bourbon on one of them, stuff a pair of zombie socks in the top, and make my first Molotov in 300 hours. Absolutely satisfying, nothing goes amiss, I train all the zombies into a neatly packed congaline of flames and they all die politely.
Maya heads back home and has another restless night, waking up around four in the morning. Eat, take care of the zombies chewing on corpses in the back yard, watch the woodcraft guy take his shirt off on tv. Living the dream. But by now the zombies are starting to stink up the place and we've narrowly avoided corpse sickness by taking that break in the random house for a night, so i decided it's time to start burning bodies. Maya lights a campfire in the back yard and starts tossing corpses into it, easy enough!
But when she stops to have a cigarette, a zombie sneaks up on her. Drawn in no doubt by the crackling flames and the sound of burning flesh, so it's a scramble to pull her mask back on before she gets sick while also training the zombies through the campfire. Hey, at least I won't have to cremate them one by one this way?
Several very close calls and a lacerated arm later, the horde I had utterly forgotten about being drawn into and avoided in the school, is finally, finally, dealt with. So, Maya heads on into the kitchen through the back door for a well earned strawberry milk!
And immediately bursts into flames because a flaming zombie managed to die just on the cusp of my house and now the kitchen is on fire! And I don't have an extinguisher yet! The Stop Drop And Roll mod comes in clutch, and Maya puts the fire out before it gets too bad. She'll be tender on the lower torso for a while, but all in all that's a good trade for her life. The screams of pain draw in a couple of stragglers, but only four zombies comes to check it out. They stumble over some still burning corpses -one actually lost interest in chasing Maya and instead went to monch on a flaming corpse of its own accord- and quickly perish
Then, finally safe, again, Maya heads inside to watch the damage unfold and also, finish off that damned strawberry milk before the fridge burns down. All the counters are gone, all the weapons and the guns, all the cooking gear and even my cupboard full of drugs. But I managed to save my spare bags and it's honestly very pretty, the effects of a fire. Eventually, the fire dies out and only three tiles of kitchen remain. The one with the fridge, the one with the corner cupboard full of non-perishables, and a single wooden chair.
Counting her lucky stars, Maya doesn't even get pajama'd and instead just falls into bed. Somehow, the food, arguably the most important stuff I had, because I pulled it from every house in a two street grid, survived. All the weapons and the drugs and cigarettes are replaceable, and the burns will heal. For the first time ever, I actually have a recoverable run here! If this was my typical run, I would have been dragged down by flaming zombies for daring to use a new mechanic. I'm feeling good about this! I'll update when I inevitably wraparound a stopsign moving all my stuff!
Tl;Dr, Shenanigans after shenanigans ensue that end up with a massive, flaming horde wandering through my base in the early days of a new run, and burning down everything EXCEPT my stockpile of food, kicking off what will hopefully be a very badass character arc!

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TW mention of self harm and suicidal thoughts
" Glass children are those who are growing up in a home where a sibling takes up a disproportionate amount of parental energy "
Well. Disclaimer : I am not a child, alright, I am 20. But I've been thinking a lot about the last 10 years of my life, and I am, as much as it pains me, a glass child and I've been since my sister's born.
Of course, at first, it was (I thought) only because I was the first born, the big sis, you know.
But 3 years ago, my sister discovered Tik Tok. Everyone knows Tik Tok, right? Well, we all know what kind of stuff we can find on that app! I, myself, found the description of a "glass child" there. I use Tik Tok frequently.
My sister always had problems with her friends. When she was younger, she was always in the middle of some arguing between two or three girls, never really had a day where she wasn't coming home with what I call "girl's gangs" problems (you know when two best friends suddenly split and get mad and get other friends to form like alliances and stuff to b*tch on the others? Ya know, old stuff, we've all been there).
She was never wrong in those situations. She was coming home laughing about how she was the peacemaker and never creating problems of some sort. Thing is, I know my sister. Like the back of my hand. Alright? I just... know when she's lying. Still, to this day, she always brags about how good she is to manipulate people and make them do what she wants. Alrighty girl, weird flex.
Well, she got to high school (what we call secondary one in Canada), and then, she started having anxiety. Like panic attacks and all? I've had those, still do these days, so I understood. I became her protector, her therapist, calming her down when my mother critized her for exagerating. I knew what to do, and I gave up all my energy to take care of her, of her mental health, as a good old sister does.
She made it to the second year of high school (secondary 2) with difficulties. Panic attacks again and all. 3 years ago, as I said, she discovered Tik Tok. I know Tik Tok and its algorithm : there are specific fyp where you can find videos about the same topic over and over again. I suspect she was in a dark side of Tik Tok, a depressed one, where you can see all sort of sad/depressing things and stories (I know, I've been there too, now trying to avoid it as much as I can because it affects me mentally and I start spiralling).
Cutting her hair short ( I guess the "funny mentally hill" trend where you cut your hair on a headbutt and dye it, I know, been there too).
Sexuality explored too. Like she was trans for a while and wanted us to call her another name (she isn't anymore, she told me so about 3 months in). I always respected her choices and calling her what she wanted to be called at that time. She was a kid, she was 13, so she was discovering herself and her preferences and all. No problem with that.
She started hanging out with some people like that too. She had a non-binary friend, a trans one, a furry one, etc. She was having fun with them. Great people. She finally had a group.
Some of them, however, had the same experiences we all hear about on Tik Tok. You know, some of them not in a great home, or in a bad relationship with parents, depression, anxiety. Hate to say it, but you know those people on Tik Tok who (unfortunatly) are bullied on the internet for being... like... huuuuh (wondering how to say that without insulting anyone) like stereotypical? Like... you know those who wants a cat litter in a classroom in a unironical way? Some of her friend were a little extremist on that plan. Again, never really bothered me.
We have two parents, a mom and a dad. They divorced when I was 7. My sister was 3. They never fought in front of us, never heard them, it was really a suprise. They went their separate ways. Me and my sis got used to go to each of them for a week, and then go back to the other for a week. It was fine, working good. My parents are both accountants, my mom teaching it too. I had a strong disagreement with my mom in 2019 about one of her (numerous) boyfriends. The only one i really hated with all my heart. This resulted in me leaving her house for about a year. My sis was still doing 1 week/1 week. Apart of that, my parents are pretty basic ones, never abused us and we always had everything we needed.
I started college. I loved it, still do, and was finally starting my life as an adult, I started a great job, was doing good in school and... was still helping my sister and my parents with her anxiety/ panic attacks. Even learn in my degree how to deal with people who disorganize.
Then, the cutting started. A lot of her friend were doing it, she told me. And then she started having those episodes where she was cutting herself. Never with something sharp, like a knife or else. But with like compass and crayons? Then, she started having suicidal thoughts. Then, and that is where it all went down, she called 911 for suicidal thoughts. She was home alone and the police called my mom.
What had she done? Scratch herself... with a pencil.
I've had panic attacks before. And suicidal thoughts that crossed my mind but I never acted on them. Never. And I can't imagine myself doing it. I talked about it, of course, with my best friend, someone I trusted and it was making me feel better. How did I know my sister was doing that and having those thoughts? She just said it, casually, at dinner with the whole family. Like... girl? It really got the mood down, everyone worried and she was like... glowing? I don't know how to say it.
She was always a bit dramatic and had a way of making everything about herself, but it was never about negative things. More like flexing a good grade or whatever. She was always talking about how depressed she was, how she was suicidal, and the things she was saying were... like straight up a depressing tik tok. Like one day I found something she said ( I think it was like "you don't understand how this feels it is like blablabla i don't remember) WORD FOR WORD in a Tik Tok. It is like she wasn't expressing her feelings, but made up phrases you find on the Internet when you type "panic attacks" or "depression".
After a second call to 911 for taking 10 advils, she got admitted to psychiatry. At that time, I was watching my parents fall appart, running around to appointments for her, my dad having stress acnea (at 45) and both of them exhausted. It was a real drama. Everyone in the family talked about it. It was the only subject of discussion, the only thing that was on everyone's mind.
I was hanging out my seat in class with my phone on my belly to be sure to feel it vibrate if something happened. We were all in a bad place.
And then, we got a diagnosis of autism.
I'm sorry, what? Where does that come from? I mean, alright, we'll deal with that one.
But then. That's where all went down for me. Sis started therapy, changed school, went to an adapted classroom for people like her and with disabilities. My parents were still all over the place.
Except where I needed them.
I was 18, at that time, starting adulthood. I have ADHD. It is really hard for me to respect a schedule, think about every appointments I have, every homework, every luggage I can't forget to bring to mom's or to dad's. I was also giving my all in school, never missed anything, straight A's and working my ass off.
I started realising that everytime my parents texted me was to ask/talk about my sis.
Every. Single. Time.
They'd ask me to bring my sister her lunch that she forgot, to go get her when she was down, or get her to her appointments like I didn't have a whole fu**ing life I was trying so hard to keep on line.
I gave all my free time to her needs and my parents's. I educated myself on autism, defended her when my mom was thinking she was faking because I wanted to prove I was there for her. That I was the life saving good sister. I never, ever, heard her say thank you.
Never.
The only compliments my parents were giving me is "thank you for getting your sis for us. Thank you for being there for her. Thank you for doing things with her."
I went trough some stuff, at that time. I hurt my knee and was failing my physical tests. It got to the point I wasn't even sure I liked my degree anymore. I was having a really hard time. But my parents never saw my pain. I have a tendency to hide things, sure, but I was really trying to talk to them about how I was feeling. They were listening, and letting go. Why didn't they start worrying for me like they did for my sister? I don't know, don't really care now. I was having suicidal thoughts too, I wanted to yeet myself in a tree and even stopped driving so it wouldn't give me options. They left me alone, because everytime I tried bringing up the fact that I was not in a good place, my sister was disorganizing at school and they needed to go to the hospital to be both there for her while she fainted from hyperventilating. Every fcking time I was talking to my sister, she was acting like she lived trough everything and was telling me she knew more about suicidal thoughts than me cause she went to psychiatry. Excuse me miss gurl, but who was fcking there to help you trough your panic attacks hun? How do you think I know so much?
Seeing I had practically no support from my already exhausted parents, I took matters into my own hands and started going to therapy. My doctor also prescribed me with anti-depressants. I was going to be ok... on my own. I've had really bad days, real hard ones. But I got back on my two feet. At least, I think so.
School was over and it was time for summer break. I had a job I loved on a boat. I've had a blast on that boat, I wasn't jumping from a house to another, I wasn't always in luggages, I had my own room like a little appartment of my own on the ship. I slowly started to discover a backpacking/adventurous side of myself. I needed air, was travelling far from home as soon as I had a week or two off of the boat.
At the same time, my sister had stopped self-harming and having suicidal thoughts. She's was now in a school for adults to finish her 4th and 5th year of college. She wasn't in a special classroom anymore. Changed friend group.
But here's the thing. Cause there is always a "but".
I started realising how much my sister was toying with us, with my parents. As soon as the diagnosis fell, she became unsufferable. For example, when I say I hate loud noises and strong light, she says she has it tougher because, ya know, "i'm autistic". I can't say something without her saying she has autism and that's why she has it worse.
When I have a good grade or I've hit a PR at the gym, I tell my parents because I am happy. I try to see life the good way, now. I'm quite proud of all the personal work i've done.
But she can't have a normal day.
It is always "ho I hated school because the light was making a sound" or something to point out she has autism.
I talked to one of my friend who is a social worker, and he told me autism is usually apparent in children. My sis was diagnosed at 15. But, and hear me out, all the things that make her autistic according to her psychiatrist... she's never really had them before.
You remember at the beginning of this rant how I told you I know when my sister is lying?
Well. I don't think an autistic person possess the flex of "being able to manipulate people so easily to get what you want".
She's always bragging about how smart she is compared to us because, you know, "ShE cAn FeElS eNeRgiEs AnD pEoPlE AnD iT AfFeCts hEr". Well, honey, I don't think that is autism. It is always little comment about how special she is because she can't do this, or that. Like I have ADHD, alright? I'm stimming all the time. I don't point it out to people for fun, actually, i'm quite ashamed of it sometimes. She bought all those fidget toys and brings them ALL to school to show how much she needs them.
One reason of why I am mad, as you can (unfortunatly) see, is my father's attitude.
The fact that my sis had episodes of suicidal thoughts and acts traumatized him. With reasons, don't get me wrong.
But now, she's clearly living well of drama and stereotypical behavior she never had before.
My father is fucking afraid of telling her no.
Like man, I don't think that if you ask her to unload the dishwasher ONE FUCKI*NG time that she's going to kill herself. Like come on.
One time, she called him cause she fainted cause she was hyperventilating cause the cleaner at her school wore a different hat than usual. Or another time where she learn that two teachers were eating togueter at lunch and not in the cafeteria?
I know my sister. She is clearly using him. She's got him hooked with a silent threat of hurting herself or making it impossible for him to receive a phone call without thinking she committed.
And. She. Fucking. Knows. It.
She left my mother's house because my mom wasn't buying her shit.
She left with all her drama about how she could appologize but she needs her space to think about what she (mom) did.
BRUH did what?!?!?!? It was so sudden, what are you on about?
All her life, she was good at one thing : breaking people's relationship.
I know, because I'm not blind.
She's the type of person that looks at you after saying your deepest secret in front of everyone and be like : "oups teehee🤪 you know i can't keep a secret" or she plays dumb "i didn't know it was a secret oupsis" with this little dumb face that I know by heart means "I win you fuck*ng idiot".
She broke the good relationship my parents had by pretending mom told her something when it wasn't right or vice versa. When she's at dad's, she always talks about all the things mom does that sucks. When she was at mom, she was always talking about how bad it was at dad.
I was in the middle like , bruh, it isn't even that bad. And of course, my parents both being proud individuals started feeling supperior than the other and downgrading the other in front of us (wich you know my sis was repeating over and over to everyone).
But because my parents are fucking blind they let her riled them up against each others. So now they don't talk. And when they do, it is always to argue about how to take care of my sis.
To make a clear example of how she gets everything she wants :
She always tells me that she wants a Mira dog. Like a service dog. She's going to keep creating dramatic scenarios like that until my father cries and decides it is the last option we have.
But no. After the dog, it is going to be another need for neurodivergent people that she's probably going to see on Tik Tok.
Because yes, she faints and yes, she is hyperventilating. But I can create scenario in my head and make them real too (maladaptive daydreaming oups). Anxiety works like that : if I start hyperventilating for 45 seconds, my body jumps to survival mode and the mammoth thing ang boom, there you have your panic attack.
Yes. She is mentally hill.
But she's not autistic. She does not need a service dog. And she can't continue leading people on like that.
She's in need of negative attention. She hates when we compliment her, she hates when we wish her happy brithday and all. But she's always talking about how she did bad at this exam and ho people please comfort me. There's always something going on with her.
She stopped self-harming and having suicidal toughts. People started living normally.
So she restarts panic attacks but she already has a psychiatrist so she needs more.
Lets go to the hospital, something's wrong with my heart. Then she's got the pleasure of walking around school with a machine to record her heart thingy.
Nope. Nothing wrong.
People start forgetting.
Whoops now she's fainting and we don't know why.
Hospital trip yeah.
Nothing's wrong.
Then she buys a machine to keep track of her blood pressure.
Does a doctor prescribed it?
Nope. You can just buy it so she did. And she could do it like in the morning, at lunch or at night, but no, she absolutly needs to do it in front of everyone, making noise in class while the teacher is talking.
And i'm starting to get fed up.
About a year into this nightmare, 3 years ago, I stopped feeling.
I wasn't able to feel anything. And that is why, today, I can write this and unfortunatly for some, it will be controversial.
After my downfall, when my sister was in need...
I did not care.
At all.
She could do whatever she wanted to do. She could have as much trip to the hospital as she wanted.
I . Did . Not . Care .
I was going to class.
And my phone was on silent.
I don't want to know. I don't care. Don't you get it? Mom, dad, leave me alone. You did it well, right? Continue.
I am an horrible human being. My best friend tries to comfort me saying that my heart of stone is a form of self-protection, a defense mechanism that I developped 3 years to protect myself and not live trough what my sister put us trough without knowing (or caring?).
Still.
I am an egoist.
But I do not care.
You want to make me feel like a glass child?
Alright alright.
I'll deal with it.
But now the glass is fed up.
And it is about to break.
Good bye and thank you for coming all the way here.